When I stare at this blank white screen, I see it is an opportunity to create. An opportunity to make words come to life. A place where my soul can express itself.
For the past year, I haven’t let my soul express itself and I have been missing it. There are a couple times where I found myself ready to start writing but for whatever reason I just couldn’t. My mind constantly on overdrive and with all these thoughts, fears, and emotions, where do I even begin. Today, I am going back to the core. I need Jesus.
Life gets overwhelming and it gets overwhelming fast. Sometimes out of nowhere, I find my mind doing circles, getting stuck on a thought that makes no sense. I become anxious. I feel trapped. I see what I need to be feeling, thinking and acting but for whatever reason, I can’t get there. In the midst of my frustration and sinking, I become more panicked. I become more worried. It just keeps piling up. I want to escape. I want my soul to relax and run free. But I can’t.
Most of my anxious thoughts are about things I can’t control. Whether it is about my career, relationships or my health. I seem to think that the more I worry, the quicker the answer will come to me. Or that with this control over my future, it will turn out perfectly. My mind begins to run away with itself. How do I reel it back in? The only answer to that is Jesus. And sometimes it will takes days, weeks or even months to act on what I know I need to do. But when I do rest in the fact that my journey has already been written, I am at peace. I am reminded that it is not my job to create my beautiful journey, it is Gods. We are not called to worry for Jesus but rather to worship Jesus.
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God,which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
If you are finding yourself in the middle of a battle in your mind, take this simple step: make a date with Jesus. Find a place where you feel comfort, whether it is your room, a coffee shop, a walk around your neighborhood or the beach. Ask God to speak to you. Let him speak calmness over your life. Begin to rest in his peace. Peace that surpasses all understanding .
Life was never meant to be easy. God wants to refine us and continue to solely rely on him. In order to refine you, you have to face challenges and battles head on with Jesus as your leader, your protector, your best friend. He will not forsake you.